Crushed.

I had a few pretty rough days in a row.
It was extremely exhausting. Nerve-wrecking and mind fucking.
Thanks to Fee, my day was so much better. :D

Woke up at 12noon. I had a 12 hour slept.
That might explained how tired I was.

Let me begin,

On Tuesday, my beloved classmates during the second break,
"chabot" class. WHY? Because we don't catch the ball of the problem,
that facilitator was soooo boring. Her worksheet, no one did.
Our powerpoint front page wasn't even up!
And they had this "brilliant" idea of going to study.
Thus, we ended up in W67J, 3 stories above, "studying".
Brothers and sisters separated table,
one side ended up gaming. the other end up chatting.

YAYNESS! so much so for "studying" for later's UT.
how ironic.

UT started. IT WAS AS CRAP AS "I DUNNO HOW TO DESCRIBE"!
I don't even understand a single question.
And the 6Ps that were suppose to be "helpful",
became gibberish to me.

Rushed off to trek training.
A few came. Sigh, disappointed.
My mood was damn bad. I was super silent the whole training.
Played frisbee. It didn't work out well.
Ended with a volleyball.

Mum's curry chicken made the night. It was superb.
I think when she retired, she can go and be a chef or something.




Today,
LEPAK day.
met Kim and Vig, left for school.
Had a briefing which wasted 30mins of my time.

Rushed down to AMK to meet Fee.
We went to catch a movie, The Uninvited.
It was more of a thriller than of a horror movie.

Went to get my dinner and we chatted.
We were smoking, and this uncle,
scare both Fee and me.
From afar, he looks like a typical NEA officer.
With a walkietalkie, a pen in his pocket,
and that look he gave. NEA.

We were like pretending to be just chilling,
looking and ensuring we ain't flicking our cigarette.

And before you know it, his wife approached him.
And just like any uncle and aunty, they were holding hands.
Shit. That fucking man gave us a jump. SHIT.

MRT homed, still thinking about her.

I don't know if what I am saying will be applicable to ladies,
But here's how I feel about you girl.
That look, that smile, that sweet voice you had,
Just caught be on an instant. And deep within me,
I KNOW THAT'S IT.
You caught my attention unlike any others.
You are irreplaceable.

Before you know it,
We are in contact. We chat and smoked together.
I gave you things that make you go soft and touched.
Well, you are just that perfect girl.

However, to me you are just like so far away.
You have so many guys, way better than me.
I know I am a nobody in your world,
but you deserve that smile everyday of your life.

Not giving up yet. Not so easily.

I miss you already.

YAYNESS.

Alright. I know I have not been updating.

Sorry Sheryl, and those that read my blog. :P

Currently I am seriously busy with school.

Nothing to do with my studies, but what lies deep within was my passion,

That keep driving me to push myself to the next level of trekking.

www.rp-trekearth.blogspot.com

That was what I am busy with.













For my class, what must have more to say then using the F word?

I knew you guys think that its THAT f word again.

Nah, its fun alright! :D

20 girls, 5 guys.

HAHA I think I am influenced by them too much.

How the way the act and talk. OMG... WHATEVER...

HAHA so much so like a girl eh!

Don't worry I am straight. Just gotta be adaptive to my current situation.

Seriously, I am thankful for all my oh-so-loving friends.

I AM SORRY, I AM JUST TOOO CAUGHT UP WITH MYSELF!
sometimes I forget your names. :(













I don't really know how is my life going to be running now?

Perhaps songs are the best to describe my feelings...

Soulmate by Natasha Beddingfield

How do you sleep by Jesse McCartney

If you people listen to these songs, you will understand. (:


anyways, anyhow. I am alright. Still surviving. :D

allow me to into my future. (:

Currently,

I am 19, studying in RP doing Diploma in Business Application.

My passion belongs to the outdoor,
which consists of mountain trekking,
having all sorts of outdoor sports,
and I love doing extremes.
Rock Climbing! Cycling! Swimming! Frisbee!


Just by looking at what I am studying,
there is an absolute no link to whatever my passion is.

However, I am glad I had found what satisfy me.
After all, happiness is one of the essential need for a healthy life.

There are 2 routes I am heading. Gotta choose one.


Continue in Business, which in turn will bring me lots of money,
however will it ever bring me happiness? I ever doubt.

Find myself a girl that I love, not lust for.
Take the relationship through my poly years,
and here and there I am sure to know,
Relations does have it's ups and down.
Army will be a great test for me and her.


After ORD, find myself a job maybe as a businessman,
At the same time, do a part-time degree in maybe business management?
Upon graduation, I will be around 27 years old.

Save up my money for a grand marriage, a beautiful honeymoon,
a condominium penthouse, a great and powerful car,


Getting married at maybe 30 years old? A little too old,
but with age comes wisdom, knowledge and experience.

Enjoy a life just with my wife for 2 years? And soon I wanna have kids.
2boys, 2girls.


Retire at the age of 50 with millions in my bank,
take an overlook at the demands of the market,
maybe I will invest in entertainment for youths.

Open a club, just like Zouk.


Have part of my profit going to orphanages, third world countries,
feeding the hungry, educating the poor and ensuring poverty ceases.

Looking back after all I have typed, gosh, this is seriously a life I would wanna lead.






Alright, here's the 2nd route.

Upon graduating from RP, I will enter army.
Seriously my mind ponders will I even be attached with a girl.
Entering into the army will expose me to a lot of outdoors,
a lot of "protecting" the nation.


ORDed and maybe I might get myself a job that deals with outdoor,
maybe Outward Bound (whatever the country is)
Or even being a trekking professional, learning how to deal with nature.

I know the pay is extreme little compared to being a businessman,
but that is, IF I were to pursue my passion. Happiness is guaranteed,
however I am a poor man.


Will I even get married if I do not have money?
Will I even find a girl that suits my lifestyle of outdoor and nature?

HAHA assuming I am single,
I will just continue loving nature, until I retire.


Retiring at 60? And maybe get myself a countryside house by the river.
Open myself a trekking company,
Planning and organizing trekking trips for those students who have passion for nature.

I will charge as little as possible,
because I know these students were just like me,
40 years ago. Saving up money to go overseas and experience nature.


After so much I typed, reflected and thought,
I seriously doubt this is the life I will ever want.
Somehow, let things go by step by step.

Alright, the third route which I didn't really thought of.
God's calling. To be a missionary.

Once a vision was given to me.
God placed me on a stage, with a translator.
As I opened my eyes, I see multitude of people,
mostly dark skinned, maybe the Africans or Indians.


Perhaps God's will was for me to make use of my speaking talent.
To show them how much God's love
will provide, will bless, will supply, will protect, will forgive sins...

I have no idea how am I going to head for this path of life,
and certainly, if that is truly what God's plan for me of life,
It will come true and it shall come true.


God will make a way, where there isn't.
He will be there for those that believe in Him in the darkest moment of their lives.
God heals, God cares and God loves.


OKAY! enough about that exciting glimpse of my future.
Sorry guys, I have not been updating like recently,
and thanks, year ones. You guys are a beautiful bunch of students.
Anything just tagged me on my board, or drop me a MSN message.

with love,
Edward.

it stills haunts me. =/

so, today was an extremely unforgettable day!

the night before, ryan and me decided to "overnight" in school,
WHY? so that i wont have to wake up so freaking early to go sch for
FOP 2009. it starts at 8.30am!!!

the night was long, silent and just not a very comfortable night.
managed to sleep only after 5.30am. awaken by alarm by 8am,
i showered and changed up, all still in a daze.......

reported and even the ICs of the SIT was also in a mess!
she didnt know what she shld do!?!?!
but her face of panicked deserves my sympathy luh.
so i went over to assist her in sorting out mess.

after all the sticker pasting, shouting, running here and there...
finally all the SIT students year ones were sitting in the badminton hall.
it's a pretty amazing side, to see Singapore's largest SIT,
a cohort of more than one thousand students! :D

managed to get team number 36!
omgosh they are some of the most farniest ppl to hang out with!
the guys were friendly and the girls were cheeky.
however have some super quiet dudes.. and girls...
HAHA okay i hope tmr will be better! :D

after everything ended,
phoned mum and i thought she was at bukit gombak.
so i alighted there, thinking mum and clinton was there.

and as i walked through the busy streets,

i felt as if the past have came back.

the surge of me, always rushing through these busy pathways,

buying dinner, milktea and some snacks,

just to surprise samantha.

walked down the koffeeshop..

i use to rmb where samantha and me always sit,

i even rmb what we loved to order.

you knw, tears flowed out,

my heartache like it nvr did before.

immediately, i became so quiet.

all i can picture was me still holding your hands,

strolling down this small little town,

and nth else matters...

BUT, it's all over.
i dont understand why, it still do seriously haunts me.
you are beautifully attached,
what you wanted you got...
perhaps thats why you dont feel the burn.

alright, so much so for now..

shat!

hahaha!

a sudden urge of running along the beaches of Sentosa.

babes + sand + sun + (maybe a cig?)

wooo.... paradise! hahahaa!

maybe a lil of frisbee, v.ball...

and nth beats a great spa, a great massage..

and finally, chilling out with friends at club.

(above mentioned is a dream.)

hahahhahahaa addicted to rap music.

great tempo, but fucked up lyrics. LOL!

still nice, i dont really care.