haha! hey i didnt know my classmates read about my blog.
they said it was interesting to read but find my blog very pessimistic at times.
oh well, i am just that joker that always put a smile on my face and the others,
because i feel that my saddness in my life, they dont deserve to feel it.

thus here is all i rant my oh-so-fucked-up poems,
all my thoughts and my saddness.

honestly, if i was given a chance to like rewind the hand of time,
i would and here are the few things i will not do.

1. on 9 of nov 2008, i will not scold you through the phone, break your heart and sink my relationship with you.
2. during shawn's wedding, i should still hug you, hold your hands, give you a peck on your forehead and apologise for the stupidness i had done in your life.
3. on 15 of feb, i shouldnt have asked sebas out to cycle.
   
4. i shouldnt have commit that sin on 6 of feb 2009.
5. 4 of march 2009, i shouldn't have even took that cigarette.

here are just some of my biggest mistakes in my life. yet, they are past. but the affect the future.
now, living a life of aimless and pointless goals. even in love, i have already given up hope. 我好累.

school is like fuck. we pay so much sch fees for our education and they make us retake our tests. sometimes i just ponder. wtf are they doing with my wad of cash.

but i attend school for only 2 reasons.
one is for my bubbly and lovely classmates.
second is for my interest group.

afterall, i am just that cupid hovering over your head seeing you in love.

a couple of my friends come and asked me abt this. but hey, this is true.
my ex and his bf is sweeetly in love.
the girls i had a crushed on sort of found their partner.
my best buddies are attached.

and have you ever had the feeling where by everyone is attached and you are not?

and i was just wondering, perhaps i am fated to be alone, even God Almighty created eve for adam.

OH YES!
w64j chalet was super fun. i wanna give great credits to my panda jiejie for putting in so much hardwork for the bbq.
i ended up being the charcoal person, setting up the fire etc etc...
and spend the night admiring how mel was a good dancer, not forgetting ain.
ended up chatting with a few classmates in person, and got to know them way alot better.
their lives are almost as fucked up as mine. HAHAA!
but i had a great time. thanks guys! :D

woke up early today because i thought that there will be a roadshow job by great eastern.
great eastern is being great by forgetting to sms me that they will do a selection for the job.
making me dress up all formal and until at the mrt station, i realised that the job is cancelled.
what the fucking fuck.

haha! stupid me.

aiyah, cant give a shit about anything already. lost hopes for many aspects of life.
maybe taking a step a day will be the best way to live life, with surprise "excitement".

screw it, it = my life.

sweet words without action,
is as good as a plant without water.

neither will it blossom,
nor will it flourish.
for action speaks louder than words.

a man without a woman,
is like a gun without bullets.
it doesnt serve its purpose.

just like me without you,
i had lost the confidence of the things i done,
i had lost my purpose in life.

goodbye my dearest, once again.