lets look back. (:

let's flip back the book of history.

sunday!

i went out with Mel. went to golden mile food centre below army market.

i must say, i did really had a great breakfast with Mel.
we chatted and catch up. after that, we went to shop around army market.

all of a sudden she felt extremely sick and we left. =(
cabbed home as she sleeps in the cab.

i can say Mel is one of the toughest girl i had ever met.
seeing her so sick, really shows me another side of her.

i must say you look beautiful when you are resting on my shoulder. (:
should take a photo of us.
anyway take care yea! there's always a next time. (:

i treated you none other than my gf, is only we didnt held hands.
monday!

went down to clark quay in the morning at 11am to collect my pay.
woah lan give me cheque.
like that means must bank in,
wait for 1 day before collecting the hard cash!

working for this IT Fair 2009 really wake my idea on how hard is it to earn cash.
it also allow me to see how far i can push myself to do sales. after this four days,
i manage to get like $11000 of sales. it is a tough world out there doing retail sales.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hgIH55n_sqs
er this abv vid is what and where i did my job.

tiring, kena screwed by boss, demanding customers, long hours and low pay.
in return? i guess is the experience i gained that matter most. (:

went home to nap. suppose to do a 40 laps swim. lazy! =x

went to meet my mum and lil bro for dinner and we had BK!
woah i ordered something that stunned the aunty.

freaking 5 patties whopper + upsize.

i think i gained 2 kg immediatly? haha!

at night, being smart i went to browse through blogs.
stumbled upon my ex's and her new bf de blog.
they are having a great time. memories come flashing back. here and there,
i can't sleep.

went for a 1 hour jog. just need to loose this extra energy.

really, i am glad you found happiness.
but i must say, the emptiness is still in me.

tuesday!
woke up by the roars of thunders, heavy storm of rains and the stuffy room.

went to training and was surprise by the amount of attendance!

albania, amanda, yannee, vik, ian, alex, kim and me!
woah i am glad that you guys are back! we had much fun today. (:
sorry guys i suck and i mean SUCK at soccer.
so sorry for creating a match into a comedy.

WAHAHAHA! FUCKFACE DUNNO HOW TO KICK BALL!!!!

we had dinner together too!
it had had been a long time since we guys sat down and munch together.
such enjoyable time. (:

trained home and had dinner with Jerral! aiyoh bro, fail can retake one.
no worries. everyone have their second chance!
HAHA! i think i need to do more than 5 times lor!

and had supper with kim later! haha as usual, chat about IG matters.
i suppose we know our roles and responsibilities already.
lets do our part to strengthen this IG up. (:

join trek not because of whoever that have or had influence you.
join trek because of the passion. nothing else.

wednesday!
haha actually it falls on today!
but since i am blogging, should place down what's up later!

will be heading down to bugis to get something for Jerral.

later going down to vivo for a lunch and some shopping with Xin,
haha sometimes i must say, i admire the way you do things,
the way you speak and the way you react. i find you really cute,
and after listening to all of your past experience,
sometimes i feel really sad for you,
but at times, i am proud of you.
like the sacrifaces you would make for your ex.

well, i dont really know if you are getting a bf this coming year, or whoever he will be.
i just wish for your guys to last long, and i wish that he will treat you better than never. (:

remember that very conversation we chat?
i really wanted to make you mine.
perhaps just another crush, but it is, a confession.

ANYWAY, can an addiction replace an addiction?

BSC i miss you guys.

okay today's sermon from pastor kong was superb.

S.U.P.E.R.B

as usual, he talked about r/s and how to maintain them.

God did somewhat talked to me when pastor kong touched on "giver" & "taker"

perhaps that was the reason why me and sam broke up.

today i served in 49A and 79 position in security.

first time leh! rather nervous. but i do hoped i did a great job.

MAYBE on my next post i will put down my notes here! (:



AND FINALLY! 21 March came. BSC ( Baptist Student Care ) 15th anniversary!

met gu weixiang, edlyn and ting fang at pioneer mall!

then next came sheryl and kaiyan.

we took a shuttle bus to Shalom Baptist Church.

woah that place upgraded so so much.

past: no air con, OHP projector, seats no cushion, outside is dirt carpark...

present: fully air con, BENQ projector, seats got back cushion, cemented carpark...

HAHA such comfort!

ANYWAY, i am so happy to see mrs yeoh, mr choo, ms yeong and all the other staffs.

BSC did really came a far way. there were so much i went through.

now all grown up already. and i see those young kids in BSC, really thank God for allowing them to be guided and blessed by the teachers.

still awaiting their pictures on facebook! (: miss you guys!

hmmm?

well, today i had dinner with my parents.

I know in this picture (abv) I look kinda fat. -.-

they brought me for a crazy feast.

just take a look at how big the fishhead is!

looking at these pictures only make me salivate!

anyway, i did pop a very interesting question today.
i asked my mum,

me: eh faye choo (mum), is it true, that young couples often quarrel and in the later years, if they last, the quarrels will cease and there will be peace?
mum: no lah, last time all the couples are mostly match make. if always argue, how will they last till today?
me: er okay....
mum: aiyah simple lah. it all have to do with compromising lor.

that made me ponder about the chat i had with xin ni the other day when i went out with her.

i questioned her if it was possible for a r/s to workout well, just by me going and ask for a stranger (of course is a girl lah) number and carry on knowing her from there using the "compromising" method.

well, for me i believed that COMPROMISING is only a component to a relationship. there will still be more to come to build a r/s that will last. no r/s is smooth sailing so i guess, its time to wake up my idea!

dad's knee is in trouble again. haiz! maybe he is aging. i seriously hope i am able to like lighten his burden of giving me daily allowance already. *guilty calls* prays that his knee will be healed.

thoughts that came into my mind:
1. should i even get contact lenses?
2. should i get that beautiful coat from g2000? cost, 139.
3. should i continue putting in so much hardwork for a nice body?
4. eh, hair long liao. should go trim?
5. birthday's soon! how to.. thank my parents?

the coat that i was talking about. black colour though! (:

and year 2 sem 1 de classmates are out! haha! not bad, many new friends.
i cant wait to.. start school?

the excitement within me cannot be contained,
neither can words make you understand how i feel.

woah, its 5am already. before u know it, i will become a panda. nights! (:

:D

yea! birthday plans are up and my family and i will be traveling to Malacca just to celebrate my birthday! I honestly can't wait to go! HAHA!

anyway, i got hooked to a new song.

Thinking Of You - Katy Perry

well, the lyrics does say for the song itself.

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with her
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

She kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
She pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with her
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...
stay....

HAHA this will be a nightmare for me if it does happen. =|

but still, memories still do linger on. =(

so lemme see what's nxt in life:

thurs - trekearth training!
friday - nth on :D maybe heading to gym or a 10km jog!
saturday - church, serving. BSC anniversary after church! >.< meet up with friends!
sunday - a day to spend with mel for food and catch ups! =D

guess my life aint that boring after all! HAHA!

The aftermath of a break up.

you knw, yes i may sound like an ass, keep confessing about which girl i like and stuff. but i can't seem to just say goodbye to you.

it's just so difficult for me to forget you.

everytime i chanced upon the letters you wrote for me,

your voice lingers in my mind, and those happy times flashed right before my eyes,

just like it was yesterday.

i knw we are over, the r/s is done, and we will nvr in our lifetime be together again.

but is it really that hard to say goodbye?

i dont knw how to explain this feeling,

but deep down i miss you and your actions and your voices.

Perhaps I still can't forget us, which explains your picture, still in my wallet.

must i live in hell everyday knwing that you are all happy in the arms of another guy?

must i find another girl and start anew and then forget everything?

i am so fucking confused, so fucking tired, so fucking want to fuck everything up.

life's a mess. back to square one.