is it reallly that hard to let go?

Honestly, i dont know if this is going to be a emo post. but here's really how i feel deep down inside.

I have exactly no idea how many days samantha and me had been separated. but here are my reflections...

so edward, what does it like to live a single life?

well lemme say that it both has it pros and cons.

pros are that i am much more free, i have much more allowance to be spent on myself. i can concentrate on making friends and spending more time with my family.

cons? these are going to hurt. well, i will stare at my hp sometimes thinking will my ex-gf someday still sms me. everytime the train passes bukit gombak, i will have memories flashbacks of the time i spend with her. everytime i sees a couple getting close together, memories come flooding back. i used to hug her but now its the boaster.

edward, but what is done, IS DONE. why still so... emotional?

simply because i still love her? here and there, there are many things i couldnt let go such as the ring i wore on my finger? the letters she wrote for me? they are still so "yesterday" to me.

why can't you just throw them away and just forget about it all?

it isn't easy letting it go.

anyway, here's a little note to you, if u are reading.

i still miss those times we eat mee fen mian at the coffeeshop.
i miss those times i see ur smile when i appear in ur shop with a box of chocobaby and milktea.
i miss those times where we use to sit at the metal seats, where we will sing, hug and kiss.
i miss those times where we will just dozed off on the mrt.
i miss your smses, where every morning i will see them and they are last before i slps.
i miss your touch. the way you massage me on my neck and head.
i miss your smile, your voice and mostly your love.

i know i have not been a good boyfriend here and there..
but i did try my best to bring that smile on you.

perhaps one will never know to treasure,
until she's gone.

anyway, it has been a long day.
after first aid course was movie at bishan with my brothers and vignette.

damn damn tired. i doubt i will pass my practical for my course for CPR.

give us a second chance will you?

i was just wondering what your reaction would be like,
if i someday hug you from your back,
just like before.